sianz...

jus reach hme after going out wif shiou n jack....

so tired todae....

tis morning go back work at 7am-10am...
so tired...
to make things worst...
e delivery man for e fruits is someone dat i hate most de...always complainin abt tis n dat de...

haiz...
den in e end...i still must do e unloading frm e lift myself..
so tiring.....

luckily manage to clear e fruits by ard 9.30am...den ard 10am i dash hme to bath n change n go meet jack n shiou at compass pt at 11am...

den we take 27 to go tampines mall n get ready to watch transformers...
overall...
it's a gd movie.... n there're tyms when u can laugh lyk mad...
e 3 of us simply enjoyed it..
haha...

den after dat jack n shiou accompany mi go ard to buy e jeans dat i want..
thks guys..

haha....
den at ard 4pm...
we go off le n jack also nid go hme n get ready for work le...

so only left mi n shiou...
den after dat went e ikea,courts n giant to walk walk...
after dat jiu went compass b4 going hme le...

i dun reali haf e mood to go shopping todae...
all thks to working early in e morning....

make mi feel so tired n moodless...


tml still nid work 7am- dunno wad tym...
hopefully i can tahan till 5pm den can see someone le...it's been a long long tym since i last saw dat someone le...

u're always on my mind no matter wad things i'm doing or where am i.... 8:07 PM

finally...
i'm here to blog le..
haha...

hmmm....jus came back after meetin shiou at compass to discuss abt e plans for tomolo....
cos tomolo going to watch e transformers movie ard 12.30pm at tamp de GV...
den after dat go shopping..
haha...


hmmm....
past fews daes at e attachment so slack...boss is not ard n i kip slacking..
which is gd...

haha...
so long didn't slack dat much le..
i'm lovin it...

haha.....


sianz...
tomolo nid go work at 7am-10am den after dat nid rush hme n go meet shiou n jack...
so bored,....


dat's all for todae bahx..
tc everyone... 11:06 PM

halo..
jus came eat finish my dinner jiu online le..
todae as usual....i end leave e place at ard 6.15pm...
n reach hme ard 7pm....

haiz...
jus nw while on e way hme in e bus...
kip tinking abt wad my supervisor jennifer said to mi ytd morning when i wan to take off dae for tis sat n sun..
the 1st thing she say to mi was...do u still wan to work ornot??... here already not much pple le n u still wan take off for both daes...

dat's wad she sae to mi....

haiz...
so wad if i work only on weekends,i believe my contribution is equal or more den those aunties there working there full or part tym lorx..

as if dat's e only part tym job i can find....i can easily find any part tym job shld i reali quit lorx..
haiz...


e main reason y i dun wan quit is becos of HER....n i noe e only way for mi to forget HER is to quit e job....

but...

i dun haf a heart to do it....

haiz...

i dunno wad to do le.... 7:47 PM

sianz...

dunno wad to post le..
hmmmm.....
todae end work at 12pm....
cos nth to do den went hme early..
den in e evening went plae badminton at punggol cc frm 6-8pm wif jack,shiou n jing jie...
haf a great tym over there.......
haha..

den after dat walk hme wif jack den i go hougang green buy long john back hme n eat..
haha..


so tired nw....

my mind is still tinking of u..
u noe whu u r.... 10:01 PM

yeah....

for mt attachment.....
all is fine after e meeting tis morning le..
i've gt wad i wan le..haha....

haiz...

hw i wish i can forget u.....
e main reason y i'm still working there is becos of u....
u one whu u r bahx...

haiz....

hw i wish i can b free frm all this.??..

will U ever understand mi??...
i doubt so....

haiz.. 10:14 PM

haiz...
jus came back after meetin shiou n jack...

jus nw boss called mi n scold mi thru e phone asking mi y i wan to quit n haf no responsibility etc
n ask mi to go back tml morning to explain things clearly....

haiz..

to me now...

nth is important le..
i'm ready to give up all dat i haf now le..

haiz...

moodless.... 12:44 AM

haiz...

perhaps tis is e end of e road for mi bahx..

todae...i leave e place after quarrelling wif one of my colleague...i haf enuff of it le..
tis morning also happen e same thing den i let him win...n didn't sae much.....den in e afternoon also happen e same thing..
haiz...

den i dash out of e office.....

guess tml i'll b going back to sch n c my LO n discuss wif him abt my future bahx...

haiz....

my mood sucks... 5:29 PM

hmmm... i'm here to blog le....
jus came back from hougang pt after rushing down there frm my attachment de place to meet xiong ge for dinner at ard 7pm...

to be exact... i didnt eat anything... jus only went dwn n buy my fav aloe vera drink from e herbal store....
den after dat..slack outside wif him n tok abt some stuffs...
n all i can sae is...

I'm GIVING UP ON MY JOB ATTACHMENT LE!!!!.....
no pt carry on lyk tis le...gettin sick of it le..
e reasons r as below...

work OT = no extra money or any incentive...
working tym not fixed..n e earliest tym can leave e place is 6pm..
but must reach there by 8.30am in e morning.....
e pay is fcuking low lyk $420 per mth n working non-stop..even for lunch..mus also rush finish n go back work......

all these reasons r gd enuff to make mi give up le...

no pt carrying on lyk tis...
haiz....
i've tried my very best le....n give all i can le....
all i noe is..i'll ask to quit tis attachment le...


haiz..... y must all tis bad things happen to mi de....??...


by tis wk...i'll leave e place forever n not go back anymore le......it SUCKS!!!!...

sometyms.....
i reali wish i can force myself to give up U...but it's impossible de...
my love for U is jus too deep...n one will b able to replace u in my heart...
as wad u've always said..we can only b frens n nth else le...
hw i wish u can give mi chance...
i noe it wont happen de...
but i'm still hoping it will happen somedae...
hw i wish u can understand mi....
but one thing is for sure... even if u treat mi bad or wad.... i wont give up on u de...
i'll still b by ur side..supporting u etc...
i will WAIT for u de...

if u r reading it...pls leave mi a tag bahz..


haiz...

nw e back pain is gettin worst le...even standing also hurts...

will tis be e end of road for mi??...

haiz...
hw i wish someone will understand mi...
:'( 8:37 PM

haiz....
ytd nite didn't slp well...
kip tinking of HER....super long never c HER at wrk le...
cos ytd i work until 2pm only..if only i work until 5pm..den i can see HER...
\to HER....
i'm sry dat i cant give up on u...
no one can replace u in my heart...
even if u treat mi bad or wad...
i wont give up on u de..
dat's all i've gt to sae....
hw i wish my mind can stop n forever b dead...

i'm very very very tired le....
can i give up nw??

haiz..

going to work soon le...
sianz...
i hate attachment...IT SUCKS... 7:09 AM

sianz...

so tired after work todae....
lucky jennifer is back to help mi again though she is off todae...
thks a lot...always appearing at e tym i nid help de...
haha...

den luckily my back pain todae is a bit pain only....haha...
yeah... 1 wk i never eat pain killers le...

haha...

sianz....
i'm starting to feel very tired n moodless le...

my future is secured n yet i'm still feelin troubled...
dunno wad to do le...
i'm confused.... 9:30 PM

gd morning....

jus wake up but going to work soon le.....
ytd nite went meet shiou,jack and andy at hougang plaza there ard 8.30pm den we eat our dinner n after dat,go plae pool....

finally can plae pool le....it's been a long long tym since i last plae pool....n all i can sae is....i dun haf my luck...

den plae until ard 10.30pm den we go off le.....




all i can sae nw is,my future is all but secured....i dun haf to wry abt finding a job when my NS end le.....
cos my attachment e boss ask mi go join him after my NS.......
i agree to dat but i told him i'll b keeping my options open 1st.......

haha....

i'll move out of my past n show e real mi....

a new mi n a new beginning....i'll b e best... trust mi.... 6:22 AM

yeah... finally haf tym to blog already le....
todae i leave e attachment de workplace ard 6pm...
haha....so gd...
if everydae lyk tis tym go hme,sure is very gd for mi de...
haha...
now is finally e start of e 3rd wk liao le..
it's been a miracle dat i'm still standing....as i didnt really expect myself to last tis long...
esp wif my back pain still bothering mi everytym i bend dwn or wad...though there's still some painkillers left,i dun wish to take it as i dun wan to depend on it for e rest of my life....


every wk is always de same for mi de...
mon-fri..go do my attachment..
sat n sun...go work at ntuc...

......

but i'm not going to let tis affect mi...
i'll enjoy myself at these 2 places..
haha....

den nw at e ntuc...it's undergoing renovation....n dust r flying ard....sianz.....almost everyone working there is startin to feel sick or wad le.....
i'll try my very best not to fall sick...
my role over there is very very impt now dat yongsheng haf left already....

sianz.....

anyway....i'll give my very best de...
believing in myself...



hmmmm....i shall blog abt wad happen on frm fri to sundae bahx...

on fri nite...went to meet shiou to cycle cum slack..
haha...

went meet him at ard 8pm+ den slack until ard near 11pm den i cycle back hme le...

den on sat,work from 7am-10pm...
1st tym since at least a mth i work for so long..
anyway,....much of e tym is spent slacking de....
den also quite long never work nite den als0 cant c HER....cos last few tyms i work nite,never get to c HER de..
den on sat nite,finally can see HER liao le..
haha...
dat makes my dae on sat....
den on sun work 7am - 2pm...
haha...

but on sun morning when e fruits come,it was very chaotic,cos none of my supervisors is not ard n jennifer is off dat dae...but luckily she gt came back jus when i was abt to give up n help mi..thks a lot..
haha...
other den dat,work was alrite bahx..
den after work went hme actualli wan slp de....but find it hard to slp...
kip tinkin of HER...
to HER
if u're readin tis...i dun mean anything de...
dun wry...


hmmm.....dat's all for todae bahxc....
gd nite pple...

=) 8:03 PM

haha....i'm here to blog le....
todae work end at ard 6.30pm den e boss drive mi hme from e workplace...
haha....
so gd.....

haha....

den ytd morning i went to e hougang polyclinic to see e doctor abt my back pain n luckily,it's jus dat i strain my back e muscles too much n thus e pain...
haha...
den e doc gib mi some painkillers for mi to eat n now...i'm feeling much better le.....

haha...

10 more wk to e end of e attachment...
i've made a promise to myself dat i'll fight till the end n overcome all odds to survive thru it de...

that's all for todae le...
gd nite pple....

=) 9:57 PM

haha...
i'm here to post le...

todae attachmemt end at 6.30pm...jus lyk last mondae...
haha...
it's gd to end tis early....

i shall update abt wad happen on sat onwards le...

on sat...went work at 2pm...den when i sae e work timetable...all i can sae is..oh my god..
so many aunties taking leave during june...

sianz...

guess i reali haf to chiong to work long hrs le....

sianz...

den after work end at 10pm...rush hme to bath n cycle to hougang mall to meet jack n wei xiong to go supper together..
den after supper...we 3 went e playground near wei xiong hse n sit dwn n chat till ard 2am den i accompany jack hme while wei xiong went hme..den we cont chat until ard 3.30am i cycle hme le...

den i 4get to switch off my hp n also dunno i working morning on sun so in e end...my supervisor(jennifer) called mi n ask mi go wrk at 8am..
sianz...

anyway...i work until 5pm jiu went hme n faster eat my dinner den slp at 6pm...haha...

anyway...the only bad pt for work on sundae is,this tym,.....my e pain in my backbone or is back le..n it's back wif a vengence...
it hurts frm ytd till now....sianz...

anyway...i'm gonna c a doctor tomolo morning n ask for a referal to e hostpital...

i'll not let a pain stop mi from achieving wad i wan....
i'll not give up at all cost....
i'll survive till the end......

=) 9:15 PM

gd morning everyone....
i'm here to blog le...
haha...

todae early in e morning jiu wake up le...
ytd nite didn't slp well...find it so hard to slp...
n all i can sae now is..i'm TIRED...
later still nid go work at 2pm...
den at nite after work,mayb nid to meet jack n shiou at e usual place...
den tomolo maybe nid work whole dae or wad....
sianz sianz sianz....

my nose still hurts after a collision wif someone while playing bball on thurs nite...
sianz sia... all i can noe from e collision is dat...it was huge n for a short while,i cant breathe properly.but luckily is onli for a short while...haha...




finally i've managed to survive thru e 1st wk of attachment,so left only 11 wks more.....
i noe i can handle e pressure being place on mi...
n i will overcome wadever pressure dat is on mi..
believing in myself n having a calm mind under pressure r the keys to success...
dat's all for todae le...
tc everyone...
haf a gd dae... 8:17 AM